So I taught Sharing Time for my first time ever yesterday. Sharing time is when all the kids at church come together for a lesson before splitting up into classes with their age groups.
To be honest, I was freaking out. I love to teach. But teaching on kids terms is really different and much scarier for me. I am more comfortable in a room full of adults than a room full of kids. I know kids are really forgiving and if my lesson bombs, they totally forget moments later or don't even notice at all. But there are other grown ups in the room which makes me even more nervous to be out of my comfort zone. I was happy with the teaching rotation that allowed me to put off teaching Sharing Time for a few weeks.
I couldn't put it off any longer. All during sacrament meeting I sat there with a horrible pit in my stomach thinking about what was coming up. Oddly enough, when I stood up to teach, my fears left me. I loved it. Not that it was without flaws...I have plenty of room for improvement. But I found that I enjoyed teaching kids almost as much as I love teaching older people.
Plus, there is the added bonus of funny comments by kids. This is by FAR my favorite thing about primary. Kids blurt out the most entertaining things. And answers to questions are sometimes so off course. Oh man...I love it. (It's not nearly as cute when adults give answers that are way off course.)
I've been stressing about Sharing Time for weeks all for nothing. In fact, yesterday was the first time I found any amount of joy in this calling. For the first time I felt more controlled and less chaotic, even though I still have A LOT to learn. (Thank goodness for great teachers and a fantastic presidency...they're the ones running primary these days and I think they know it.)
Maybe my Sharing Time fears have been a big roadblock. In past callings, I've been blessed with an immediate love for those I'm serving. I have been really struggling with that this time around. But yesterday, as I was listening to the primary children sing, I was overwhelmed with love for each child. I'm so grateful to finally feel that. I was worried it wasn't going to happen.
I finally feel like I may be able to enjoy serving in primary and what I thought would be my least favorite responsibility, turned out to be the best part. I'm looking forward to my next turn to teach already...it beats hall duty for sure.
Now if I could just understand what in the world Cub Scouts is all about...